~The Road Less Taken~

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

i've said this for what feels like a million times before, and i still don't understand why i still have to say it again.

i appreciate what my parents do for me, no doubt. i may not show it, but that is no reason for them to deliberately make me show it.

what do you think i am, a empty template waiting to be stained with the most obvious pastels?

wrong combinations can be absolutely hideous.

it's interesting how i was talking with one of my teachers (strange how i do so much of this these days) and she was talking about parents.

and she, being a parent herself, said that if parents try too hard to control their children, it ends up having the opposite effect.

basic human psychology isn't it?

yet i wonder how some parents can manage to overlook this notion sometimes.

yes, i think i'm becoming more independent (fiercely, in process and as a result). although i still depend on my parents for basic necessities, i try to keep them to the most basic, and i tend to settle the rest myself.

and being (fairly) prudent with spending money, it really irks me to see money being wasted, at home of all places, where i can at least do something to stop it.

enough of this issue i think. it's not leaving anything vaguely constructive and positive behind, it's a repetition of what i've been saying before, and nobody likes to read this kind of a bitchy trashy monologue.

but that's the exact point, isn't it?

i want to be constructive and positive about my life.
it may be repetitive, but it makes perfect sense from my point of view.
nobody likes to read this kind of a bitchy trashy monologue. including me.

this is one of the few times i wish my parents (more specifically _______________) would just read my blog, be more receptive to an alternative viewpoint, and actually listen me out without dismissing me straightaway.

it gets particularly tiresome sometimes to be a child, believe me, and sometimes we get an even shorter end of the stick than our parents do, no offence to them.

enough's enough for tonight i think. my heart aches, and i mean it. in case you were still wondering.

I stopped to rest at 10:21 PM

Two roads diverged,and I-
took the one less taken...