~The Road Less Taken~

Sunday, April 6, 2008

something just occurred to me.

and i happen to think about it a lot.

people sometimes say to me, "aaron, you should be this and that, and anything else you might care to know about."

well perhaps i should. and then again perhaps i shouldn't.

ever wondered why?

well i guess it's just the world.

because it wasn't meant to be this way.

and when it's the way it is now, sometimes it's better.

it wouldn't have worked out as we thought it would if it wasn't the way it is now.

the world doesn't work in logical, straight-line reason.

the world works in mysterious ways, sometimes for you, sometimes against you.

maybe that's what makes us sad.

that we don't know why things happen the way they do, and think back to the time when we thought we had a choice, or hope it would turn out better, or wish we could turn back time, and suddenly are filled with regret.

well thoughts, hopes and wishes are nice things to hold on to.

albeit being otherwise fated and just a figment of our imagination.

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on to a dream i had yesterday now.

i heard before that dreams are somewhat a reflection of what happens in real life.

well i hope this dream has nothing to do with my life.

there were people (my friends from school) staying overnight at some house. there was a big room which everyone could fit in easily, and so everyone decided to sleep there.

well the first night came and passed, and the second morning came.

all was good, and we were ready to start our day.

before we realised that one of us was missing.

we searched the entire house, high and low for him.

but to no avail.

we all wondered what could have happened.

then suddenly, i saw something.

a man had entered our room last night, and killed that missing person.

i didn't know how i knew about it. i guess i just felt it.

we were scared all right.

that day we decided to move on to another house, with an equally big room, strangely enough.

here my soul just seemed to split into two: half of me was doing some work on a computer (in the same house), and the other half had fast-forwarded to the second night.

having realised what had happened the first night, we were all scared of sleeping now. it was as if there was no way to stop this man from entering and murdering someone else, and so we knew that someone would have to die.

we all positioned ourselves such that we thought we could escape him. and then we went off to sleep. i remember i was sleeping behind a pillar, with plenty of people around me. we all reassured each other that we would protect each other.

if possible.

my other half was using the computer at around evening time, with the sky darkening. i felt strangely alone, like there was no one else around me.

and then it happened to my entire soul at once.

both parts of me felt this evil, deadly aura.

the half using the computer didn't dare to use it any longer, and decided to go out to the living room to sit down.

still all alone.

the evil aura seemed to have chased me to the living room. i didn't dare to turn back, but when i did...

then it switched over to the half which was sleeping.

i felt the door to the room open. and the light from outside streamed in.

i couldn't see any man at all. nobody seemed to be there.

but the aura was there, and it floated around the room.

i don't know whether it had spotted me as its victim, but i remember tossing and turning violently...

before waking up and returning to the real world.

there were other more chilling bits to it, but i can't remember them now.

but it was really really frightening.

i was sweating all over when i woke up.

and i believe it was one of my best friends who was killed the first night.

and it felt so real. like i was really going to die.

i've always liked to think about death for some reason.

maybe it makes me more human.

oh well or maybe the dream really doesn't mean anything.

hopefully not. i'm getting a bit too dark for myself anyway.

I stopped to rest at 2:45 PM

Two roads diverged,and I-
took the one less taken...