~The Road Less Taken~

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

looking back at the two oip trips to hue and changchun in the last month, just made me feel one single thing.

i only wish i had cherished my own experience more.

i still remember when i asked ms chang about going for the oip trips during the apcg youth summit.

and then a few weeks later i was delighted when she said she could put me in either of the two groups (likely to be changchun together, since i went there in 2007).

then, the next week, she said that there was no need for any sec 4s to go for the september ones.

and since i couldn't go for the november ones, i was pretty disappointed.

and now i'm wondering.

from what i've heard everyone had fun overseas. haven't found anyone who disagrees yet.

but it just makes me wonder:

if they, in 10/11 days, can achieve so much, then what exactly did i, in 14 days, gain?

why was i relieved that our trip to changchun had been delayed one day?
why was i apprehensive in interacting with my chinese counterparts?
why was i seemingly untouched when we had to leave changchun for singapore?
why was i not committed to overseeing the programme when they came over?

why am i still unable to fully recall, make sense of and articulate the entire experience?

and why am in not able to answer any of these questions satisfactorily?

i won't deny that for me, and our group, going to changchun was fantastic.

but what was it fantastic for? more of the right or the wrong reasons?

...

oh well. on a lighter note now!

if you're reading this blog...

welcome back nitya and chngyan! haha didn't know you went to changchun!

haha heard about plenty of interesting experiences too.

the heartbreaker advice seemed to be pretty handy though. =)

I stopped to rest at 12:19 AM

Two roads diverged,and I-
took the one less taken...